Walking Dead Broke My Heart

I can no longer watch The Walking Dead. My favorite character Glenn Rhee was eaten alive by zombies. I was so traumatized, I had nightmares last night. Congratulations Steven Yeun on portraying your character so well, in making him so real for me, that his death made me cry. Part of me hopes some way, some how Glenn survived. That maybe the other guy's body fell on top of him and protected him from being eaten alive. But I know my luck. If it wasn't for bad luck I'ld have no luck at all. If it can possibly go wrong. It has probably gone wrong in my life. I actually don't watch much TV. So Walking Dead was one of my guilty pleasures. But a pleasure no more. My heart is broken. The best looking man on Walking Dead is gone. My heart is broken. But I'm sure beautiful Mr. Yeun has many other opportunities coming up that will allow me to gaze upon him. Oh, well. Life is short and the show must go on. But Walking Dead will have to go on without me.

Yummies

I love being a mom. It's the best job in the cosmos and I get paid in hugs, kisses and I Love Yous. Some days are better than others. Some days are trying and I just want to pull my own hair out. But most days are good and I wouldn't trade it for anything.

I hate to pay full price for yummies. Yummies are not a necessity but they're nice to have once in a while. I usually go grocery shopping by myself. But yesterday my daughter, Cherokee, went with me. I prefer to go by myself because when she comes with me I buy things I would normally walk past without even looking at them because they're not anything we need.

As a single mom, money is always extra tight. And I've gotten pretty good at pinching a penny until it squeals. I'm not cheap. I'll spend extra of the imaginary money stuff if I feel it's worth it. But I am a tight-wad out of necessity. And I say No so much. No, we can't afford to go a movie. No, we can't afford that video game. No, we can't afford to go out to eat. No. No. No. I hate saying No so much, but what choice do I have. I have to make sure there's a roof over our heads and that we're not going to starve.

So since she wanted some yummies that neither of our backsides needed we went to the discounted stuff because I'm not paying full price for fattening yummies. We bought some assorted discounted doughnuts and we each had one last night. But when I got home from work this morning I found that several different doughnuts had a bite taken out of them.

Some parents may have gotten mad. But I just laughed. It's not like I don't know who did it. There's only one other person in the apartment other than myself. But I laughed and shook my head. When I asked her about it she said she was trying to find the best tasting one. I just smiled amused and shook my head.

There's no point in getting mad. In her Autistic mind it mad perfect sense. And I get it. Who wants to eat a yucky tasting doughnut. If it's yucky. It's not yummy. And the whole point in buying yummies is that they're yummy.

City Center

On Wednesday I spent the day at City Center Mall in Salt Lake City being an extra for a Hallmark Christmas movie. I'd never been to the City Center Mall before and I'd never been an extra before. And while it was an interesting experience, it wasn't a glamorous one. I had to wear winter clothes in 80 degree Fahrenheit weather and walk back and forth silently for 8 hours. I never sweated so badly before in my life. Dehydration was a real possibility. Lucky, Walter took excellent care of us. He was in charge of making sure we were where we needed to be and made sure we got water when we needed it. Lunch was provided and it was wonderful. It was wonderful to have a meal that didn't include Ramen Noodles. Often Ramen Noodles is the meal because they're more affordable than mac-n-cheese.

I got lost trying to find my way to the correct parking garage. I've been here in Utah since 2007, but I have spent very little time in Salt Lake. I guess I'm just not a big city girl. I need acreage. Yet despite how exhausted I was because I went straight from my job at Home Depot to Salt Lake when I got off Wednesday morning, overall I had a good time. I met some wonderful people that I wouldn't mind spending another day walking in circles with again. It was a good day and it put some much needed cash in my pocket. It was a positive experience and I wouldn't mind doing it again.

But I don't think I could be a full fledged actor. Too much repetition. Too much doing or saying the same thing over and over again. One of the things I had loved about being a teacher was each day was unique. Over the road truck driving was another thing I loved because each day was unique. And I really like my job at Home Depot. I work with the most wonderful people there. I just wish my position was full-time. That's it's only draw back. But it's perfect for someone who's going to school.

Except I'm not going to school. I'm supporting me and my daughter with it. But hopefully I'll be able to move into a better position soon. I'm taking supervisor training and getting certified to do a couple of other things for Home Depot. It's just hard to be patient sometimes. Especially hard to be patient when you occasionally have to skip paying a monthly utility bill to buy some groceries. So I'm just doing my best to keep my chin up and I keep putting one foot in front of the other. I know I will still continue to occasionally stumble and fall. But I'll just continue to pick myself back up and keep moving forward.